Very happy... to feeling nostalgic

I am very happy today partly because

1) Finished my Science of Music essay. Hopefully it is ok. Managed to cut down to 786 words by cutting out a lot of things. Now that I think of it, like not a lot of stuff from lecture are inside. Die...

2) Finally started my MIDI composition! I have 16 seconds worth of music already! =D But everytime I try to continue playing the tune out on piano, I get a different concept, thus different music, tempo, rhythm, notes everytime. Not sure how I am going to put everything down on paper then down into the programme. If only I can attach a keyboard to my computer and play like that then the computer automatically record the notes...

Ok, now that I've typed it out there doesn't seem much to be happy about.

Anyway I have to thank Jeremy for the MIDI composition thing. No, not because he gave me ideas but because in JC, he showed me that one can just sit down at the piano with no score and just play by simply following your heart. In the beginning it was plain odd and I was darn shy but he encouraged me a lot and inspired me with his playing although he didn't learn the piano. I remember Jenny and I used to head to the hall after PE (what's the name for that?), got backstage and checked out the piano. Both of us ended up playing the piano at different times. That was when Jenny was learning the piano too. I think there were also times when Jeremy, Jenny, me and some others like eric were also there. We'd spend the whole 45 minutes break there. It was at that place, backstage with the grand piano which was slightly out of tune, that I first discovered I could sit and play without a score. I still can do that now. In fact, I do that better than with a score in front of me.

It's exhilarating and you never know what you can come up with next. The bad thing is that once I played it, it's over, so the music only exists once. Each time I play, either something or everything's changed. I don't remember the music I play, I just play with my heart and let my fingers run. Then I forget all about it. There were times at that backstage when I felt like crying while playing and I remember Jenny once told me she felt like that too once when I was playing. "The music's so sad," I think she said. Can't remember.

I miss JC life, I miss my class and I miss the place. Ah well, when I graduate from NUS, I'm probably going to miss the place too.

Damn, this entry started with me being happy and ended with me feeling nostalgic.