I once had zest for life

Hello everybody! Hope the New Year's been a good one so far - minimal questions about when you are going to get a boyfriend/girlfriend or when you are going to get married and not too much nibbling of new year goodies.

Anyway if you're already exhausted from today's visiting, here's a little something. Visit N.E.mation to watch a variety of animation clips done by some secondary school students on the topic of Total Defence and then vote for your 3 favorite clips.

Watching the clips brought back a lot of memories and made me think about some matters. It reminded me of how capable we were during secondary school days. Always striving for the best, giving our all, believing that we can always achieve something more in all that we do. There was so much zest and passion for life, so much energy in us to spend, so much believe in ourselves. Yet for some of us, for me at least, with passing time the energy dwindled away. There was more tiredness than enthusiasm in what we are doing, less belief that we can do better because of the current belief that there is always somebody better and that we'll never reach up there. Sometimes it boils down to no interest. Sick of doing our best - why do so when one can relax? Today's me is a far cry from me in my secondary school days and I wonder why. Am I just tired of the rat race? Tired of always competing or have I just gotten plain lazy? I wonder if I can ever rise up again to the standard in the younger me.

And then I ask why should I, when for half the effort I can achieve reasonable results.

The young are mostly always inspirational. We once were. Maybe for some of you, you still are. For me, maybe I once was, but don't know about now.

That zest, that energy. Maybe I just need to find something that truly interest me and put my heart wholly into it. Or maybe it's time for a change. But is change really necessary? What do I want? To be truthful, I still do not know.