Academia in Life

Completely frank here.

Most of the time when I read of how his life is going, I get immensely jealous. Not matter how small a matter, I still get jealous. It's completely ridiculous, but that's how it is. I know that stuff happens only when you make an effort to do it, you know, not just wait for stuff to happen. But somehow when I try, some things don't happen the way they do and I guess that's alright because not everything can turn out the way you want them to be. It's like what he says of what he learnt in the process of the trebuchet competition - you can't have everything the way you want. You gain some, you lose some, then you learn from it. I find it especially true in group work.

Just the day before, JY and I were talking about group work and she told me how much she hates it because, she said something like, why should I accomodate them? Because in life it's all about accomodation and group work teaches you how to do so, whether or not you like it or hate it, this skill is necessary. I don't love group work, nor do I completely hate it. I believe that there are lots of things to be learnt from others - useful skills that they have, unique perspectives and even the bad stuff like how never to treat your team member and other things you know you should never do, they serve to remind. Not to mention that you learn over time how to deal with certain situations, what to say, to always listen and to dare to voice out your opinions etc. Lots of things, really. Most of the times, fortunately, I've got decent team members or rather, members that I can cope with. True, I lost my temper sometimes and got darn irritated at other times but that's just how it is.

The other day while having lunch with my cousin, he asked if I always have lunch alone. I told him that most of my friends aren't in my major, they're either in other faculties or other majors and it's kind of difficult to meet up with them because we have a time-table clash or some already have their own group of friends to hang out with, people whom you don't really click with, you know. I'm not the type who will say hi to the person sitting beside me during lecture and strike up a conversation with him/her. Even if I do so, I find that most of the time they aren't really people I can... identify with. My cousin's right about having friends in the same major as you. Imagine going into lecture most of the time and sitting by yourself then leaving by yourself, semester after semester. Is it any wonder that I'm envious and jealous of SH who seem to have friends surrounding him, who have people to eat with and who is blessed enough (in my opinion) to meet even more people from his own faculty through his blog who actually likes him? It isn't just him, it's anybody for that matter. I get kind of envious when I go into the LT to see people sitting together with their friends, talking animatedly and laughing before lecture and during breaks. Not wanting to be always alone, I am now trying to get as close as possible to people in my major. Maybe it won't be so bad, maybe there'll be a silver lining in it afterall.

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I'm contemplating filing for graduation in my 3rd year and then going overseas for further studies in psychology but I'm not sure how advisable or viable it is. Any ideas/comments?

Looking at my CAP though, I wonder if I can pull it up any further just to be on the safe side.