Hamsters mating

Last night I put the male hamsters into the big tank where the female and kids are. Within the 45 minutes I was watching them, the hamsters have mated a total of 7 times, no less. The first time I saw him mount the female from behind and start to hump at rapid speed, I could not believe my eyes and thought it must have been just cleaning the top of the female hamster head very quickly. After all hamsters do groom each other. The second time it humped, I looked at them closely and was absolutely sure they were mating. By then, I don't think separating them would make any difference any more because we are going to have the babies 3 weeks later anyway.

Oh man, hamsters sure hump very very quickly! The following is a brief description of the mating, please auto-skip if you are below 18 of age or have a very clean mind.

He chases her, he kinds of climbs onto her back, uses his paws to grab her, raise her ass up and hold her there while he humps (at inhuman speed). Think doggy-style for humans. For some reason, his eyes were wide and bright while her eyes were slitted and small while they were mating. That she would scamper away and proceed to groom herself, they would play around for a bit and fight a bit. He would chase her and they would sniff each other's butt and kind of groom each other, they would snuggle up to each other, put their noses against each other (are they kissing or something? Do hamsters kiss?), then he would chase her again, she would refuse then allow him to mount her.

It's kind of sweet and very amusing to watch them mate.

Gross

6 hours already and the memory of the salty taste still gets to me. It makes me want to puke. Yet at the same time it was also fun and interesting. Not to mention I have bruises on my knees and lower back.
But I feel bad that he feels bad. Apologetic. Made use of him in a way, got him to ask me because I wanted it. Personally I'm mostly kinda past feeling guilty already. It nags at me sometimes, but it's possible to actually shut it off in that aspect. But him, he still has feelings, he's still a very normal person.
One-off thing only, he says. I nodded but only half-believed it. I wanted more.

But thinking about it now, if it's so uncomfortable for him, one-off thing only it shall be.

I seriously am my own destruction.

Feeling unsafe

Tad of disappointment at how things turned out. I thought we might have been proper, decent friends or formal acquaintances at the very least, yet the first thing we talked about was sex and somehow the topics never veered far from there after that. Seeing that nick in the "friends" section of my MSN list was so weird, as if he no longer belonged there anymore, that I had to move his nick to another category. Granted it was lesser than a week that we had started talking again and he caught me at a time when I was horny. Maybe things will be better, maybe we'll move away from talking about sex, masturbation and fuck buddies sooner or later. Maybe we won't. I wish we will because I haven't engaged in such conversations for some time (I'm proud of it) and I intend to keep out of it. Having conversations like that is like going back to ground 0 -to that short brief past which you want to leave behind you- when you've already advanced, and in this conservative society, talking like that basically makes one look - and feel- like shit. That is, at least for the girls.
Well at least we're talking and for that I'm grateful. But I think I'll keep off him for a while to keep temptation away. Just in case.

Ok, obviously this has unsettled me enough to actually blog about it.

Ungirly thoughts

My period has already been over for a couple of days and I shouldn't be feeling this, but I do.

I feel extremely horny.

In fact I've been to the school's toilet, watched some not-so-innocent sites for a few consecutive days and have woken up from sleep with some not-so-innocent first thoughts.

This is not good. I'm supposed to be innocent, remember? Help? (help in the form of offering s** is NOT appreciated. I promise I'll jab your eyes out if you offer it)

On MSN

Friend on MSN:

Im a Fooper! says:
just finished my mock exams

Im a Fooper! says:
mock = not counted = vegetarian

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That perverted guy MSN-ed me again the moment I unblocked him. Don't know why I unblocked him. I instantly blocked him again. A part of it is out of fear, the other's plainly because I'm tired.

That day my male friend was feeling a bit *ahem*. Somehow we started exchanging porn websites. Hmm, not sure if it's normal that a female can talk about these kind of things with her male friends. We were chatting and I told him that I really enjoy watching videos of lesbians, especially those of females kissing. It's way better than watching people have sex. Seriously, there's nothing more arousing than watching people kiss, especially girls.

He asked if I'm turning lesbian.

I laughed and told him no, though friends have teased me about being one in the past. Never was and never will be, I told him, hopefully.

This is so sick. I didn't mean to talk about porn or even centre my blog around it but it seems as if I'm talking more and more about it. I need to clean my mind up a little.

Just a couple more things.
Today in the bus on the way to Clementi this couple in front of me was so intimate, playing around. You know when couples just have that vibe radiating from them when they're sexually aroused? You can tell from their actions and the way they couldn't be bothered that everyone else could see what they were doing. Their faces were so close. In fact I think they did kiss once but I was trying very hard not to look. So tempted to watch but I pointedly directed my gaze out the window. It was so amusing I think I was smiling to myself at one point. Smiling because of that and a little something else from memory.

There's this really hot girl in my psychology group. Bronzed and slim and not bad looking.

Need to clean up mind.

I wonder if things will ever turn around, that I'm the watched instead of the watcher.

Upcoming period

Erm, if you are the really innocent type, maybe you really shouldn't read this post.

That time of the month must be coming soon because I suddenly feel a bit weird. Feel like sucking some cock and have been fantasizing a little more than usual. Just yesterday, that guy asked me again on the glory hole idea and this time round it's more tempting than usual. Seriously, though, I don't see how it can be anonymous. My mind also kind of drifted to him, that guy I'm shamelessly infatuated with. It's kind of insulting to him, to think of him when I'm erm horny, especially since last time I accused him of treating me as only a toy.

So yes, I think that time of the month must be coming soon.

Morals

There must be something wrong with me because I don't see what's wrong with somebody having sex with a person 10 years older. Where are my morals?!

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Gotten off Avik.

LoveEdition.com

Whoa, saw this here and thought it's darn interesting. Is there really such an exhibition here? I had absolutely no idea.
Go on and click anywhere on the webpage!

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Comes in 4 different flavours: Chocolate, Cool mint, French vanilla and Strawberry.

This is cute: Fun In Bed™

"In the game you will find a gentleman’s tie, a lady’s stocking. A feather to tickle your fancies and 240 Fun In Bed cards in 6 categories.

Kiss Me, Tease Me, Surprise Me, Ask Me, Please Me and Talk to Me"

Interesting: Spank Me Kit

"Crank up the excitement in the bedroom with the erotic spanking kit – Spank Me!"

Ok, just go check it out yourselves if you are interested, I don't have time to look through everything, just found it interesting.

Show, a Birthday & Sex talk

Let me apologize first because this is going to be quite a mundane post. Too much happened to cut it away, especially since it is this girl's birthday.

Had another show outside Esplanade today. Was supposed to be 3 half hour sets with breaks in between, only that it started to rain after 20 minutes into our first set and the rain didn't stop except during our first, prolonged break. After which we sat around and talk cock until 9pm when the organizers told us they're canceling the third set as well and that's good news for us because we get paid for doing almost nothing.

Was YZ's 18th birthday today and the members playing today bought a cake, meant to be a surprise. So as we were in the room allocated for us in the Esplanade itself, Damien sent me a SMS asking me to bring her out for a while because they had to prepare the cake. I was surprised and started getting nervous. Heh. So I jumped out of my seat and suddenly announced that I want to take a walk outside, would YZ please accompany me? Apparently she didn't find it odd and told me afterwards that it seemed normal enough because it was me. Well, thank you very much, YZ. =D Since the room in Esplanade had a smoke detector (and because they couldn't find a lighter), Damien used his laser pointer in place of the flame. Then after she made that blowing sound in the completely darkened room, he switched his light to a white one, like smoke. I offered to bring YZ to a club for the experience since it's her 18th and she said her aunt would murder her or something. Not ladies' night tonight anyway, I think.

We had dinner at Thai Express. The noodle was nice, especially the soup base. But the meat balls were a little too peppery for my liking. According to Jeremy it tasted like our normal chinese minced meal balls (with too much pepper). By the way, those balls were huge. No, the balls don't remind me of anything. It was nice seeing Jeremy again (because he's darn lame) and hearing him do a demostration of beat-boxing.

Yiang Shan and me hitched a ride from Damien and on the way we passed by Geylang, including the entire row of prostitutes lined alongside the road. I commented that I've never actually seen something like this before, so he took us for a ride along one lane in that area.

"The houses that have numbers on them are the chicken houses," he says (or something to that effect).

I saw a few men chatting up a few scantily dressed women, thought I spotted one who was quite pretty but can't really see. The rest were really just revealing flesh to attract customers. Men were just standing around doing nothing or standing around the women staring at them. One man stood in front of a row of women, looking as though he's making his choice. Yiang Shan said that the girls aren't very pretty.

"I heard that the best ones are usually inside the house," Damien replies and explains something about pimps, good/bad pigs and the not so pretty women acting as magnets. He further says, "If you can look into one of the houses, you might be able to see a 'fishtank' (room with glass window) with 'fishes' (prostitutes) inside. The men make their choices from outside, looking into the room, that's where the names come about."

We finish making the round in that one lane and looking at all the numbered houses. He advises us kiddingly, "So next time you all buy property, remember don't light up the number outside your house."

I am amazed at the sight because I truly have not seen such a thing. I didn't know that so many houses and nearby hotels catered to this trade. Naive, ain't I? YS mentions something about sex and how a malay girl in her class boasts to everybody that she has already done it with her boyfriend. Either Damien or her was commenting, "So great to have lost it meh?"

"It's getting common nowadays," I said, "In fact for my age group, for some if you haven't done it, you might seem weird to them, and this group of people are growing. It's actually normal to have done it (before marriage). It just isn't as important anymore."

Both of them seem quite surprised, then Damien thought about it and agreed that it is the case these days then he went on a little bit about STDs, babies and some friend of his who has AIDS. The babies are innocent, but if they suffer some deformity or blindness etc. because of something his/her parents did...

The conversation drifted off and turned to another topic somewhere, or was it because we've already reached the studio? In any case YS and I took the bus home from there after carrying the instruments up.

It felt odd coming back to my new/old house, but I liked the shorter walking distance.