on MSN

yz: steph!
me: hey
me: what
me: you're attached huh?
yz: ya la ya la
me: OMG
I WAS JUST KIDDING
REALLY AH
REALLY REALLY
yz: no la.
I meant "ya la ya la"
me: -_-'''

Damn, she called me so enthusiastically can...

I'm quiet

Me: I'm a very quiet person.
NTT: No you are not!

Falling In Love

From Ximin, a fellow friend/ringer in Ministry of Bellz, on MSN,

How do guys fall in love?

I don't know. How do guys fall in love?

Random Quote

Too many term papers, projects, presentations due. Very sorry, no time to blog, so here's a completely random quote,

friend: ...but half of arts is virgin...
me: suddenly I don't feel alone

Now you know.

Random; $D , =d

I'm busier with watching anime and surfing the web schoolwork nowadays. This is to explain why my recent entries are logged at the ungodly hour of 1am or so.

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Seen on Jeremy's MSN nick,

notice that shift+4d is $D

If you don't get it, there's the link between "4D" and "$D" which looks like money face.

Jeremy: even $d looks like "oooo.. money is yummy"

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I'm hungry. =d

If you don't get it, "=d" looks like a person with the tongue licking the lips.

On MSN

Saw a friend today in school, talked to him on MSN just now,

me: I see you (in school) super odd
friend: why??
me: weird lor...
like can't imagine you talking in real life the way you do on MSN
friend: can one la
me: cannot lah
haha
friend: yyy
=[
me: the once or twice I talked to you, you so zhen jing (decent)
friend: fake image nia
cuz u look so guai guai (good girl image)
I also dare not
me: Because I guai (I'm a good girl)
friend: you are not
.
.
.
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friend: wanna get laid or not
.
.
.
friend: lemme know if you wanna get laid

I once scolded him for flirting with my friends.

Seriously, I'm not pretty enough. Here I wondered if guys are sometimes really so desperate they'll sleep with any girl. Should I be flattered here, or is it an indication that I still haven't gotten past that image? In a way I'll never get past that image.

And I do think I'm a good girl... Ok, quit rolling your eyes already. I'm seriously a good girl! See the "good girl" sign on my forehead?

"You owe me a blowjob"

While talking to JH on MSN,

Seraphim: ahhaha and you owe me a blowjob... ahhaha
me: WHY
Seraphim: I dunno
Seraphim: You told me the other time
Seraphim: ahahah
me: where got!
Seraphim: got lahhhhhhhhhhh... hahahah
Seraphim: and I'm not shitting you, not that kinda person
Seraphim: lol
me: You shit on me and I'll box you

?!

When did I ever say that. Oh god, I'm a bitch. *slaps self*

Heh, I made him sound so evil here.

Weird Question

初二，2nd day of Chinese New Year and I got a really weird question from a friend on msn,

SK: Are you scared when I talk to you?
me: ?!

Another perverted nick

In relation to the previous post, seen on another's MSN nick,

point and shoot

Am I perverted or are my friends perverted.

Ok, don't answer. I know what you all are going to say already.

Perverted quotes

On MSN with friend,

"Hey, what's up?"

"My dick."

With same friend, talking about my running nose,

friend: Just put a plug in it
me: Wait it explode, or I breathe it in, or it get stuck how!
friend: hahaha
friend: you have to learn the blowjob technique, how to get it in but not too deep
me: .........

Halloween. What's Halloween?

In response to my nick Halloween. What's Halloween?

Jing Hong: It's when you say hello to the wind! Hello wind!

Friend: Halloween is great! It's that time of the year when girls get to dress damn slutty and it's ok.
me: so you go there to ogle at the girls right?

Friend: No. Go there and party with them

Friend: Why look when you can dance with them.

On MSN

YZ asked me yesterday what I would like for my birthday, so today I MSN her the first thing she logged in to tell her that she and whoever's sharing can get me a jazz CD. A short while later, I asked if she's really getting me a CD and this is what happened:

yi zhen: shhh
yi zhen: you don't know anything
me: ok
me: I don't know that I told you that you can get me a CD for my birthday

on MSN

YZ suddenly me this out of nowhere ,

YZ: So you did lunch with him the last time he asked you?
me: I can't remember who it was or when he asked me for lunch.

Oh dear, I sound so... flirty? Ok, the description do not fit me.

on gchat

weihong: sometimes, when you message me, I wonder whether you are talking to me or to yourself.

on MSN

Last night Yanwei said that I am an exhibitionist (because I twit about epilating my armpits), but it's ok as long as I stay only at words. Then he went on to warn me,

yanwei: if you show me pictures of your epilation on your blog..
yanwei: I will never go there again
yanwei: and sue you for traumatizing me for life

Heh. *rubs hands eagerly* Now how can I balance my camera phone?

on MSN

Benison: yo steph, can I have your address please?
me: Why??
Benison: cos I want to drop by in an army uniform
me: Are you serious!
Benison: nahh of course not.. haha
Benison: I'm applying for a US visa and I need to put down the names of two people who can confirm my personal details
me: chey

Can't believe he actually did that. The really stupid thing is that I actually believed him for a while there, already had an image of him at my doorstep in his uniform and was also mentally constructing a reply telling him that it's ok and he don't need to do that.

Benison is a friend of mine from JC.

"May I have your I/C?"

me: I just went to 7-11 and bought a bottle (of alcohol) and the person asked for my I/C. Do I look so young?
Chu Wen: Yes you do.
me: -_-'''
me: What's the legal age? 18?
Chu Wen: Alcohol 18
me: I look younger than 18 meh!
Chu Wen: uh, ya, you look like a JC girl.

I'm not sure if I should be embarrassed or not because I now look 3 years younger than my age rather than 2, which has been the norm for some time.

And it's only freaking 8% of alcohol. One can't get drunk from 8%. Ok, my friend probably can but I indignantly refuse to say that it has an effect on me.

note: this post was written while drinking the said bottle of 8% alcohol. I am very bugged by that 8%.

on gchat

me: I feel wide awake now though I should sleep coz I have school tomorrow but I haven't read my notes so perhaps I should stay up to read my notes.
friend: sleep or stay awake?

me: stay awake I guess.

friend: so u have decided to study lah. Good good.

me: haha, yeah.

A while later,

me: shucks, I'm tired now.
friend: ...

friend: your determination lasted 10 minutes

friend: bravo

Touched

I know I'm being utterly naive, but well, at least I'm a tad less naive than I was when I first stepped into the university.

Through a mutual acquaintance/friend (my friend, his acquaintance), I got to know that web-cam-guy learned that I had blocked him on MSN and he had been enquiring about me through my friend. It's always nice to know that there is a guy looking for you so, coupled with curiosity, I decided to unblock him. I won't elaborate on what happened, just that he did what he has always done.

Then he started giving me serious advice on how to spend my last couple of years in university, asked if I will be getting attached any time soon and then offered advice on guys in general.

Not sure how to put down my thoughts on this, let me see what I can do.
I've never thought that somebody I got to know purely for the reason of online sexual interest would ever proceed any more than just that, however little past the line. What struck me was that for once he actually gave me serious advice about life and not offering to teach me how to do a proper blowjob/handjob. He said he was telling me all these because I'm a nice girl. It was almost like an elder brother giving advice to his younger sister.

Almost.

Only that elder brothers don't masturbate on web-cam to a younger sister. Only that I blocked him again once the conversation was over, fully aware that this might be the only time we would ever talk like this.

I think I'm still too naive because now I have a better opinion of him and I would hope that conversations in the future (if there are) might be a little more non-sexual when in actual fact it will never be like that. When a relationship between two persons veer even slightly towards sex and the such, there will always be that overtone.

I was really touched by what he said and the fact that he even bothered to dish out serious advice to a mere girl online.

You're a nice girl.
I'm a nice girl who watches you masturbate?!
Hahaha, THAT's another issue altogether!

I've been good for a really long time. Maybe I've always been good. I think I like being good.

Feeling unsafe

Tad of disappointment at how things turned out. I thought we might have been proper, decent friends or formal acquaintances at the very least, yet the first thing we talked about was sex and somehow the topics never veered far from there after that. Seeing that nick in the "friends" section of my MSN list was so weird, as if he no longer belonged there anymore, that I had to move his nick to another category. Granted it was lesser than a week that we had started talking again and he caught me at a time when I was horny. Maybe things will be better, maybe we'll move away from talking about sex, masturbation and fuck buddies sooner or later. Maybe we won't. I wish we will because I haven't engaged in such conversations for some time (I'm proud of it) and I intend to keep out of it. Having conversations like that is like going back to ground 0 -to that short brief past which you want to leave behind you- when you've already advanced, and in this conservative society, talking like that basically makes one look - and feel- like shit. That is, at least for the girls.
Well at least we're talking and for that I'm grateful. But I think I'll keep off him for a while to keep temptation away. Just in case.

Ok, obviously this has unsettled me enough to actually blog about it.