I'm quiet

Me: I'm a very quiet person.
NTT: No you are not!

Lazy

Me is lazy girl.

Me miss exercise, perspiring and that sense of adrenalin.

Flying

I have a fantastic urge to take a flight out of Singapore.

To see the world beyond Singapore. To fly, to train myself and prove to myself and others, so that nobody will look down on me.

Ok, go to bed liao. Very late.

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to my friends who are born in July and August, those I remembered and those whose birthdays I forgot! Here's a birthday song for each of you, especially for Jeremy, whose birthday is today.

The Birthday Song - Corrine May



Heh, actually accidentally found this song and found it beautiful.

Regret; males

Told a friend today - Don't do things, or not do things, that you will regret in future.

I wonder anyway, when we do things that we regret, is it not a learning experience? For it is because I have at least once regretted that I have learned to appreciate the full meaning of this sentence. Perhaps it is more a case of accepting your past mistakes and learning from them than anything else.

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It is harder nowadays to say "sorry". Harder nowadays to forget. Harder nowadays to trust men. Even harder to trust that I want to be near a guy because I like him and not because I just want some male comfort.

Ok, actually I just want some comfort. Why is it that we can't rest our heads on the shoulder of a male who's just a friend. I mean sometimes a guy's fun to hang out with and I feel comfortable, so sometimes I'm tempted to just give him a hug or lean on him for a bit, but as a friend and not because I feel affection for him in that way. It's the same way how I'd put my head on a female's friend shoulder or hold her hand or lean against her. But we can't do the same thing with guys, so I'm mostly reduced to patting their arms -_-'''
Talk about being touchy-feely.

Ok, maybe other people can do that but I find myself unable to although I want to. One reason of which is because I don't trust myself enough. I shall stop here.

My Manic & I

A fantastically angsty and morbid song by Laura Marling. Hope you'll enjoy it - My Manic & I.




He wants to die in a lake in Geneva, the mountains can cover the shape of his nose.
He wants to die where nobody can see him but the beauty of his death will carry on so.
I don't believe him.

He greets me with kisses when good days deceive him and sometimes with scorn and sometimes I believe him.
And sometimes I'm convinced, my friends think I am crazy, get scared and call him but he's usually hazy.

By one in the morning day is not ended, by two he is scared and sleep is no friend, and by four he will drink but he cannot feel it, sleep will not come because sleep does not will it and I don't believe him.
Morning is mocking me.

I'll wander the streets avoiding them eats until the ring on my finger slips to the ground.
A gift to the gutter, a gift to the city the veins of which have broken me down.
And I don't believe him.
Morning is mocking me.

Oh the gods that he believes never fail to amaze me.
He believes in the love of his god of all things, but I find him wrapped up in all manner of sins.
The drugs that deceive him and the girls that believe him.
I can't control you I don't know you well, these are the reasons I think that you're ill.
I can't control you I don't know you well, these are the reasons I think that you're ill.

And since last that we parted and last that I saw him, down by a river silent and hardened, morning was mocking us, blood hit the sky.
I was just happy, my manic and I.
He couldn't see me the sun was in his eyes and birds were singing to calm us down. And birds were singing to calm us down.
And I'm sorry young man, I cannot be your friend. I don't believe in a fairytale end. I don't keep my head up all of the time.
I find it dull when my heart meets my mind
And I hardly know you I think I can tell, these are the reasons I think that we're ill.
And I hardly know you I think I can tell, these are the reasons I think that I'm ill.

And the gods that he believes never fail to disappoint me.
And the gods that he believes never fail to disappoint me.
My happy man my manic and I have no plans to move on.
The birds are singing to calm us down
And birds are singing to calm us down.

Disconcerted

This isn't the first time it had happened, but it still feels a little disconcerting, how this whole thing is.

Ah well, I guess it isn't that big a deal. And I'm happy for my friend. =)

Pre - Green Carnival 2008

Tomorrow, I mean, this coming morning, will be the official launch of Green Carnival 2008 which will also be the platform for the launch of "NUS Fights Climate Change".

Green Carnival is proudly brought to you by SAVE. Bleh, trying to do the advert thing where there's always that "blah-blah-blah is proudly brought to you by Yeo's (pause), something (pause) and something-else".

Finally the photos are up (after some rough handling) just this evening and I just finished cutting voting slips for you all to vote. I think the voting slips look neater than the descriptions for the photos. Measuring, cutting and pasting paper is not good in wet weather - everything becomes damp and sort of crumpled. Yes, please come and vote for the photo which you feel best answers the question "What does Climate Change mean to you?" Outsiders welcome to visit too!

Well, have to wake up early tomorrow. Do check out Green Carnival 2008 at Central Forum, NUS, from 25th August (Monday) to 27th August (Wednesday). Media's coming, Guests-of-Honor are coming, everything looks neat, there are flowers around, there's a pretty stage...

It looks pretty impressive so far.

I hope the photos don't drop during the opening ceremony. *prays*

I need chocolate

I ate a chocolate muffin today because I was under pressure.

Now I need more than just chocolate muffin because my photoshop trial expired and I have a poster to rush out and I absolutely suck at designing; I have 30 (and counting) photography entries to collate on this extremely slow computer; I have not prepared for lesson tomorrow.

If you have seen this "Capturing Climate Change Photography Competition" in your NUS mails with that film-like logo, yar, that's the one I'm supposedly in-charge of. I made the logo too, but my friend did the actual poster. I told you I suck at designing.

Anyway, if you're interested in the photography competition, check out our Green Carnival website for the details. Prizes are pretty good and you don't need good photography technique - just lots of creativity as well as a decent camera which gives you a picture of minimum 500kB. You just need to tell us What Climate Change Means to You through the photo, a title and a short description.

Competition ends today at 2359 and I'm very strict about the 2359.

If you're not interested in the photography competition, you can check out the website for other stuff like free movie screening. Do also come down next Monday to Wednesday, 25th - 27th August to the exhibition at Central Forum for exhibits on environmental issues, especially climate change.

You can go look at the photos on display at Central Forum and vote for your favourite ones too!

Yar ok, now I have to go figure out a way to design a poster on MSWord, study, collate the entries and then sleep, all in one night.

My fingers hurt.

Hamster escaped

Hamster escaped and wasted an hour of our precious time trying to capture it. So now it's going to spend the night in my room, hearing me snore.

Oh well, who asked it to be so adventurous.

(It's actually spending the night in my room because we did not want to risk it escaping while we transfer it into its actual home, which is a very sad pail.)

Good day

It is a good day today.

Odd how a single thing can make an overall bad day into a good one, isn't it?

My friends gave me the nicest smiles today. =)

Irritated

Am incredibly frustrated and irritated. Attributed it to my oncoming period though I do not remember being exceptionally so during this period of time.

Come on, keep your cool!

Snore

I woke up suddenly this morning and heard myself snore. A gentle, consistent snore. No wonder my throat feels weird.

Shucks, did I snore on the bus too?

Dispensable

For some time now, I realized how dispensable I am.

Whether in terms of love or at work.

Not given that acknowledgment, conveniently wiped off when not needed. I am angry and upset. I cannot accept it. I will not accept it.

Hamsters

Four different hamsters:

The athletic baby's baby

The angry father

The sleepy baby

The greedy baby

The only time I can stroke them is when they're eating or busy running on the wheel because when they are running on the wheel, they will still be trying to run from me but they can't run away from me.

That "dear"

Arzhou has "dear =)" as his gchat nick. After teasing him about it over a week or so, I have reduced to saying,

dear
hahahaha

Which kind of sounds wrong.

Sometimes I am unbelievably childish.

Engine raring

I am finally ready to start being busy again. Some rest I had, abandoning tasks assigned to me. Or maybe I just needed to warm-up. In any case, it feels good.

Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion

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0 point bid

I added a 6th module to bid but after adding the module I forgot to place the bid itself.

I am super hero.

First day of school

It's the first day of the new semester, a spanking new semester. My final year, finally here. So many ups and downs over the last 3 years with the highest of the "ups" the last semester and the lowest of the "downs" 3 semesters ago.

The first thing that happened today was my handphone battery went flat and somebody in class tripped over my charger wire, bringing my phone smashing down to a terrific crash from table to floor. And everyone turned to look at her. My phone still works. Heh.

Somebody behind me in the queue at arts canteen said she feels good to be back at school. Wanted to turn back and tell her "me too".

The arts canteen has added electronic cash registers at each stall and as a result, higher price for our food. Everything now becomes slower though, because auntie has to key amount into the machine. Shouldn't they charge us lower prices for the extra time spent waiting? I don't like the new prices, too expensive.

Friend says,

everything price hike
but standard nv hike

Had lunch with Ming Zhu. =) She says she's a little nervous, like when it's our first day at Secondary School during Sec 1 and 2. A little apprehensive, a little excited. I don't wish to graduate, she can't wait to graduate. It's her final semester.

Stepped into first class, Evolutionary Psychology. Said hi to a course mate I've seen around in school and he hands me a survey to fill in for his research. I giggle.

Waved hi to few more people. Jinwei comes in then Kai Qin comes in, so we sit together at the front row. Fidelia comes in next and sits next to her friend.

The 3 hour seminar starts. A/P John Elliott starts his lecture and I feel like I'm back in Developmental Psychology, only that this is a lot more interesting.

I wonder how will this semester turn out.

It really feels good to be back at school.

Lawry's The Prime Rib

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School's starting... and ending

I'm looking at the class rosters for the modules I'm taking this semester. Saw some very familiar names, some familiar, some recognizable, others nagging at the back of my mind. A wave of nostalgia suddenly overwhelms me and there is the urge to cry. I don't know most of them yet I feel like I know them, both at the same time.

If everything goes well, I will be graduating in a year. I miss school and my course mates already, though I hardly know them. *wipes away a tear* This is so silly.

Happy 43rd National Day

Oh, I almost forgot to say this here.

Happy 43rd National Day, Singapore!

I like National Day parades because the ceremonial uniforms are very cool and for the first time, seeing a pilot on TV also made me realize that men-in-action are basically very cool.

Of course some men in whatever type of action never do seem cool at all.

And hearing the national anthem is kind of nice too. Can feel that patriotism rising up in me. Heh.

That level-5000 module

I have a male cousin who's doing his Master studies in Psychology at NUS. Today I SMSed him about the textbook for a level 5000 statistics course, thinking that perhaps he had taken it in previous semesters before or something so I could borrow the book because the book is horrendously expensive.

He gave me the most horrific answer I have heard today,

I'm taking the same module as you this semester. Hee.

*points to sidebar* Me is undergraduate, and a very lousy one. He is Master student. I need to do some revision before going to class.

Cool night

It rained this afternoon. Stormed, really. It is still raining now. Wonderfully cool.

How sad it is, to know that such weather is required to obtain this coolness at night, when not too long ago, the temperature at night could easily reach lower than this without the help of rain.

The present is but a fleeting moment, gone all too soon.

Loss

For so long part of me wondered why I do what I did and all of a sudden today I have come to realize what a part of the reason is.

I think I have done almost everything, given almost everything. Maybe I have done insufficient or given wrongly because it seems as if nothing has changed and nothing will change.

From that moment I felt completely lost and heartbroken because I really don't know what else I can do. Nothing more in my hands, it is beyond my reach. That sudden realization of loss...

I guess this is it, isn't it.